November

I'm glad it's a new month. I just need a new beginning. Things seem a little fresher today. I can feel the crisp cold, I'm ready for winter I think. I'm wearing my first sweater today.

I'm coming back to myself again. That's such a good feeling. I'm going back to what I know. Prayer, The Word, and Praise. Those are the only things I know for sure work in my life. This life is so simple for me sometimes. These things make me happy, and isn't that what life is about? Why do we sell out for anything less than that? We put the money, or the name, or the prestige above a smile on our face. I find that so wrong. This world shouldn't be putting its stamp on us, we should be leaving our mark on the world. With Everything.

I'm so happy I'm at peace with my spirit right now. I can finally think coherently. Just a thought here... it's crazy what time does to people. I'm just thinking back two years ago to someone I knew. Or maybe I thought I knew them? I don't know but I just remember such beauty and grace. I just remember seeing a light emit from her, she glowed. She had awesome green eyes and an even more beautiful heart. And now all I see is less than pleasing pictures coupled with less than attractive language. I remember how modest and down to earth she was. I think that's really beautiful. I remember how she'd listen and say some words funny. And even though things didn't go right, she's a good person. She has a good heart, and I know somewhere down the road she'll do something great. I just can't recognize her now. I know the person I once knew is in there. Maybe she couldn't even recognize me if she saw me. It'd be nice to talk one day.

I'm never gonna settle. I want someone who loves Jesus more than I do. I want someone who can't live without Him. I've come to realize that the only reason why I am is because He was. I can't live this life by myself. And it hurts because I can sit here and type this and it will be completely foreign to so many people. It will be so foreign that someone's gonna sit here and judge this and yell blasphemy in their minds thinking how stupid and ignorant I am for thinking that something I can't see could lead me to say that I can't live my own life. If you're that "guy", that person that just doesn't get it, then I'm sorry.

I'm just happy. I'm happy whether it rains, whether it shines, whether I get 40 text messages or 0, whether I have a girl on my arm or not, whether I make 4 billion dollars or 4 thousand dollars, whether people love me or they don't. Because God loves me. And He is the only reason why I breathe, why I smile. I wish people could feel that today.

Keep The Peace



This is what happiness looks like.