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As a fairly creative kid please understand the fact that I do appreciate the art of life. The interaction, the craft behind words and self expression etc. But there is much to be said about being who you are when the last cock crows. There comes a point where all that talk and all your skills go out the window. Where you are judged by your actions because actions speak louder than words. As much as we try to talk and defend our position, it is found out to be fruitless. We are seen for the very clear and at times simply defined beings that we are to the core. Whatever that may be, understand that that is what matters. We have the ability to create whoever that person is, but at times it is very hard to alter who that is. But what needs to be understood is that person is appreciated by some people but isn't compatible for everyone. And there comes a day where you must realize that you as a person will not be able to satisfy everyone. As much as you want to say the right things and to be soon within the "good" group of people in everyone's mind, you won't be. I feel like if you somehow have a mass group of people that do "like" you than I believe that you don't really have a stand for anything, because if you ever take a strong position, especially in a moral sense then you will have opposition.

This level of understanding is very interesting to me, because I acknowledge my opposition with my life and I am no longer afraid of being judged by my claims. I'm no longer afraid of not being liked because I don't expect everyone to understand who I am or why I make the decisions I do. And the best part is I'm okay with that. It took me a very long time to be okay with being out of the middle of everything and just being me. But learning how to deal with myself and taking the time to understand what's really important to me has been the best time I've spent. I have a true identity that I like and to me that's priceless.