I sort of have an issue with the English language. I feel like there's not enough words to express certain types of intent. Or maybe I'm just annoyed with the word why, and why everytime it comes up I am searching for something that I can't exactly find. There should be another question word that we use to distinguish between something that we can't exactly answer concretely I think. Questions that we can't back up with science or facts. Just so everybody's on the same page, so people understand how abstract or incomprehendible (sp) something may be.
Usually when I overanalyze my whys it's only to later realize that I'll never get anywhere with them. That somethings I'll never understand fully ya know? I think that's sorta cool. If we knew everything then I feel like life wouldn't be interesting. Things wouldn't have their value, and I feel like life would be minimized to a series of events with no more meaning than what the textbook gives it. Life would be a formula. You do this and this and you'll get this. I like the world like it is because there's so much room for reflection, interpretation, and change.
I'm just so happy to know people. I'm so blessed to be in a place where I can be me, and people accept that. I'm so happy to be in a place where people are interested in what I'm about. Jocelyn... you're an awesome person. I don't know what other people have said but you have a good mind and a good heart, and I hope you're happy and if you're looking for something I hope you find it.
This place feels like home more everyday. I'm glad I'm not judged by those close to me. Nothing beats the Squad and my Holland family. You people make being here so much awesomer.
God, today I'm really thankful for you. For showing up in my life. For lighting my path, for leading me. Thank you for not giving up on me, for forgiving me, for loving me. Thank you for giving me a heart for people, for bringing to me awesome friends, and for allowing me to grow. I don't know how you do it, I don't know what tomorrow brings, but what I do know is that everyday I choose to push you out I lose myself. Thanks for giving me purpose and identity. Thank you for finally making me happy, for making me content with my mind and for conquering my troubles. Thank you for giving me a reason to smile, a reason to cry, a reason to breathe, a reason to laugh, love, and live. I'm so happy to be alive today.
Keep The Peace
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