2011

It's 10:42 and I'm in my room by myself. Listening to Clifford Brown. And I'm okay.

On the way home I was thinking to myself how interesting it is the way people bring in the new year and how it reflects their personalities. Some like to go big and hit the city and dress up, some like to have small get togethers, some like to have family nights, some like to drink and get sloppy, etc. While this came to my head I thought about how mine is. I was out with some good friends earlier, and now I'm alone. Granted my parents are upstairs watching a movie but essentially I'm on my own. And it's interesting that I think 'til I'm married this is how my mental state is going to be about the new year. I'm a little hypocritical about my feelings towards this holiday because I feel like nothing really changes, but people use the new year as an excuse to change their lives. I think it's sorta stupid but this year I'm somewhat buying into the idea and I'm gonna try to challenge myself to be better. I wanna make this a year that's less about me and more about Him. More about everyone else. I really don't need anything. I already have too much. I want to give more and be on better terms with myself and be better towards others. That's what will make me the most happy. Less about money and more about loving. Sometimes I wish I could be alone for a couple days just so I could figure me out without all the distractions. I want to be humble and grateful again.

Anyhow, I hope everyone that's out or in tonight is safe. I hope someone out there takes this time to just appreciate who and what they have. I hope someone looks at their family of their friends and realizes how blessed they are. I hope someone is looking to the future with hope and confidence that this year all their wildest dreams come true. All I know is that I need Jesus more than ever. And it takes work, but I want to be open to receive his favor this year.

Keep The Peace