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I'm making a conscious effort to make my posts shorter, because I really get to rambling sometimes. Sorry :/

For starters... I'm happy.

Regardless of what's happened to me or what family matters are going on or what college stuff I have to get ready or whatever other resposibilities I might not be fulfilling at the moment... I am actually happy.

I really do think happiness is a mental thing. For so many years everyone tells you how to be happy.
I have been spoonfed by many people. Family, friends, strangers, old, young, the successful, and the unsuccessful, and it seems that everyone thinks they know about happiness. Like it's something you can put in a jar and mass produce. Like it's an equation that you can whip out that always comes to the same solution.

Once I stopped looking at everyone to the left, right, front, and back of me. Once I stopped comparing my life. Once I stopped taking advice from the man or woman with the fake smile....... I realized that happiness is inside of me.

If I was dying and had something to say it would be close to that. Please if you're reading this just think about it. Happinness is not a gain or a loss, it isn't a prize to be won by the handsome or most talented. Happiness is by all means attainable by all of us, and it takes God alone to supply that pure joy.

For me, I've noticed that I'm happy when I'm comfortable with myself. Not even neccessarily when I'm having "fun" cause I can be doing some of the most fun things that I like to do and not be the most bit happy. And I think that's a misconception. I've been told that I'll be happy when I find a job that gets me this amount of money or I can be happy with myself when I'm doing what I love. To be honest I'm happy when people don't write me off, when I'm not given a leash or a certain set of rules to follow. I'm happy when I have the opportunity to open up and show people that I'm not just a stupid kid, and that there's more ways to crack this puzzle called life. I'm happiest when I realize that the person I am and the person I have the potential to be is lining up. I'm happy when who I am can be of assistance to someone else. I'm happy when I can help.

The End.

p.s.- I still feel like that's a long post. Hopefully this will change in the near future.

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