Habits

I've been thinking this week about my daily routine and a lot about how I act. I've cursed a couple times within the past few days and I just don't like it. I dunno like everytime I curse I just feel bad. Thinking about cursing and how it made me feel snowballed into me thinking about how cursing came along in my life, and to be honest I don't even know. Habits I find to be sooo crazy cause they are super easy to make yet super hard to break. I've been biting my nails for years now and I can't quit just, because it's got this almost mental hold on me. I've started to become very aware of certain habits because they hold me back from change... good change. Why are good habits so much harder to establish than bad habits? Why is it easier to just skip the homework for the rest of my life instead of actually doing it? After getting to this point I realized it comes down to a couple simple things: work, effort, and heart. For me it is those 3 things that keep me going to where I want to be, but for you it could be a different combination of things.

I've noticed to break bad habits it takes 100 percent commitment. Since they seem to be carved deeper into our way of life than other habits it just makes it that much harder to do. I'm not trying to make this personal, but say you or I really had trouble with treating others with respect... how hard is it to treat a woman with respect when society is telling you otherwise many times a day through many different outlets? I'm not gonna lie it gets tough, and I've noticed that this applies in any area. Whenever I really want to do something productive or right, society seems to always be telling me otherwise. Why waste time doing that when everyone else is doing this. Sometimes I feel like I'm living a life that is contrary to this world, and that's when I realize that my life is contrary to what this world preaches to me. What has this world really done for me? I feel like it has only created a false image of satisfaction, passion, love, success etc. When was money the main language that defined someone's success? When was love ever determined by how big a ring is, or what color eyes someone has, or what your fracking horoscope said would happen today? What happened to honesty? Yea I'm asking a lot of questions and maybe you think I'm stupid but I think I just want to challenge some people today to think a little bit. What is truly real to you, and is the joy it brings something that really lasts? I feel like I could go a lot farther with this to the point where it'd become a religious thing, but I'm not gonna go there right now.

On the other hand, SB Varsity Soccer won 3-1 today in our first scrimmage against Lake Braddock! Special thanks to Danny boy for the most amazingest goal I've ever seen and August Spencer for letting me borrow his extra short sleeve jersey.

I also just want to say I love Paige and Kathryn, you two people are awesome :)




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