It's been awhile since I've written but for some reason my life is just feeling stale. Don't ask me why cause to be completely honest I wouldn't be able to tell you. Many good things have been happening or are about to happen that I'm happy for so here's a little list...
-Regional Champs
-End of School/Graduation
-Grad Parties
-Beach volleyball season
-World cup
-Beach weekk
-Longboarding
-Tennis
-Djing a birthday party

So much good is going on but I feel so much bleh right now. Sometimes I wish I could just talk to someone or something and get a straight up answer. I wish I could understand why certain things inside me talk to me the ways they do and why there are so many things that influence my decisions. My brain's just in a weird spot I guess. Sometimes I really enjoy being tired because I'm too lazy to worry or think about stuff ya know? You just shut down, I wish I had that ability with other things in life. I wish I could just shut down all the doubt in my head and all the problems and the pain and just not have the energy to worry about them. But sadly it never seems to work that way for me. Maybe I'm due for a relationship, or atleast some legitimate interest in a girl. I guess that's another reason why college will be nice. I get to see some new faces and learn about some new people. The ashburn breed's getting a little stale for me now a days. Sometimes I try to think about the perfect girl and what she would look like or act like, and every time I seem to come to the same conclusion. I always end up accepting that I have no idea what the perfect girl for me would look or act like. I sorta wish I knew what it took to get me interested in someone. I guess I'll know when I find her right? I can't imagine having love like that, a love that's so exciting and young and perfect. After awhile you forget what it feels like to be sought after, to be wanted. It's sorta sad I guess but that's just how it goes. Everything has it's time right? Well anyhows I'm done rambling on about nothing so I hope you all have a good last couple weeks or days of school my friends.

Keep The Peace