People

Have you ever thought about how crazy it is that within this whole entire planet called Earth, there are not two people that are the same? It sorta freaks me out to be honest, but at the same time it's sorta cool. I also think it's pretty epic how out of all those girls, there's only one that I'm gonna marry. And who knows where she is now.. she could be awake over in the eastern hemisphere of this planet during the middle of the day while I'm sitting here getting ready to go to bed. This world is really awesome. Even though there's a bunch of doo-doo going on in a lot of places, I like how we all somewhat coexist.

I like to think of myself as a people person for the most part, but lately I've found myself losing my patience a little bit. I really don't know why to be honest but some traits within certain people don't just dissapoint me but instead sorta push my buttons. It's one thing to not like a part of a person but it's another thing when that part of the person you don't like effects you because whatever that trait is is being directed towards you... and that sucks! I've found out that one of these things is respect towards parents. I can't stand when I see a friend or just an acquaintance not treat their parents with respect. Regardless of whatever bogus stuff they're blaming you for or maybe they won't let you do something, don't pay them back by going to your friends and bashing them. I'm pretty sure that 95 percent of the kids i know's parents love them so I understand if you're a little bit ticked off with their decision but don't disrespect them. Your mom went through physical hell just to get you onto this Earth so when she gives you a little taste of that let's try to show her a little love. Second thing that sorta urks my nerves is when people have a comment for every little thing you say. I can't stand when you're just trying to tell someone something or just trying to have a conversation and there's that one guy that has to barge in and tell you how stupid whatever you're talking about is or how I stuttered when I was saying something. There's always those individuals that feel like they gotta poke fun at every single thing. Just let it go ya know. Use that energy to find yourself a hobby. Anywho, I'm just in that mood. I really can say with full confidence that I love people, but sometimes it's tough to love someone that doesn't show the same love or general kindness in the opposite direction.

And just to take this to another level... in the grand scheme of things, what I think or feel really isn't that big of a deal when it comes to this picky stuff ya know? I mean I'm one guy, and I'm human too, so who am I to be sitting here rambling on about what I like and don't like in other people. I'm not one to judge and I totally understand and respect that. And that's just something I need to work on. It's weird thinking that you're somewhat good at something just to find out that you could be that much better at it. That's pretty much how patience is for me. I've noticed the older I get, the more patient I need to be with all people. The more I need to accept and the less I need to speak. The more I need to just listen and spend less time judging. When I take that point of view I'm a much more effective person and I can be of a lot more help than harm. I can actually give quality insight instead of just being a little pessimistic goober that poops on everyone's ideas or character traits. It's interesting how it takes me a whole page of writing to realize that I'm the one that still needs work haha. Oh how wonderful life is. If it wasn't this way then I guess life would be pretty boring now wouldn't it?

If you're reading this and I haven't talked to you in a couple days, could you do me a favor and just gimme a holler on facebook? Just send me a message or a wall post please. I feel like I've been disconnected with some people and it'd be nice to start up some conversation again ya know? Regardless I hope everyone's having a super awesome and chill summer and I'll write something better next time hopefully ;)

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Beach Day

Today I really just don't know what to say. My trip to Myrtle Beach for the infamous "beach week" really was eye opening, but to be honest I'm somewhat glad I attended because I learned a lot. In an environment like that you really can get a good glance at who people are. I figured out that many people I call "friends" in my life are truly like engine oil that you use in your car. Depending on the type it can either help you out or just slow you down. By the time you realize you have the wrong oil/friends sometimes your car is already breaking down. Either way, it doesn't last for long cause regardless the oil gets used up and then replaced by new oil to keep your car running fresh. Sadly, that's just how it is. Down there I realized that, and it was truly shocking, but at the same time I'm okay with it. Because though friends can be a very beneficial thing in your life, they ultimately don't make you who you are. Friends don't make choices for you, friends aren't the ones getting grades for you in school, friends aren't the ones that have to answer to your parents, friends aren't the ones that created you nor do they sometimes ever really know you. It just makes me sad to think that so many kids are worried about who they're around instead of themselves, to the point of where they'd lay down their dreams and their goals. I don't understand... and you know what maybe I'm being a little critical, or a little naive, but you know what, people can't even speak to eachother correctly these days cause everything has to be sugar coated with an lol or a smiley face and it makes me sick.

Today I'm tired, and to be honest I like the tired Egey better because he doesn't waste energy on stuff that really doesn't matter. When I'm tired I really don't care how I look, or if there's a spider in my house, or if my clothes are matching or whatever. When I'm tired and I'm down it starts becoming about survival, it becomes about me, and yea maybe that's selfish but sometimes ya just gotta do stuff for you. Sometimes you have to make up your mind and be a little different. I'm sick of getting pestered about the choices I make and how I'm not a big dawg cause I'm not smoking weed or how I'm missing out on the "party" cause I'm not walking around drunk or how I can't possibly be having any fun cause I worry about those who are beligerent instead of just making sure I'm having a good time, or how I'm leaving beach week and going back to boring ol' ashburn yada yada yada. I'm sorry people, but I don't care! And if your idea of fun is let's all go get drunk enough so that every girl here can get taken advantage of and every guy is stumbling around to the point of where they're hurting themselves then I won't ever be having fun so you might as well just not get to know me ya dig? I'm sick of being judged and I'm sick of the lies to be honest. It's like smoking cigarettes... why in the flipping world would you ever smoke cigarettes? Everyone knows what's gonna happen to you, everyone knows it causes cancer, everyone knows it smells bad and it's unattractive, yet people STILL smoke cigarrettes... WHY!!?? That's how I feel about a lot of stuff today and that's probably how God feels about us on this earth sometimes. It's tough being on the outside and looking in at a bunch of beautiful people with so much potential just throwing themselves away. It's tough seeing people you've known for over 4 years just turn into animals. It hurts knowing that these people think they have friends, but when their life is on the line, their "friends" aren't even in a sober enough state themselves to understand the situation and do what's right. I've realized that people that truly care are few and far between in this world. Lots of people just settle for the trash because it's too much work to think that there is otherwise out there. Regardless if there is or not I've decided I'm gonna look for something greater, because what I saw down in Myrtle Beach was not in any way shape of form what Egey Levy is about. And if you're gonna read this and get bitter cause this is what I'm saying and get all sassy and call me a little bitch then so be it. Start whatever rumors you want, say what you want to say, but if you're gonna do it, at least be man enough to come say it to my face. I'm done trying to be okay with this, and I'm done being the innocent bystander. I'm moving on to the college of my dreams in 2 months and I don't NEED you, nor do I have the time for the BS so just save it.

Ya know, I'd like to think that there's some positive stuff I'd like to do in this world and though not too long ago I was a little bummed about leaving this all behind, I'm ready to step out and stand on my own. I'm ready to be the man I've wanted to grow into. I'm ready to do great things. And every journey starts with a choice. Well I've made my choice, I've seen the fork in the road, and I've chosen wisely and I'm not going back either. I'm a new man now and I'm happy.

"If you stand for nothing, you'll fall for anything." Sorry people, but I've found my feet today and I'm not going down.

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Graduation.

So everyone should know what I'm about to write about, but to be honest not a single one of you will know because graduation for every single person is different. Just like every single one of our lives are different yet intertwined. Graduation for me started at 6:45 AM this morning. I awakened and got spiffied up so Bryson and I could get to the Patriot Center early for sound checks. By the way Bryson sounded amazing today... well yesterday now and it was an honor to be on stage with him on such a compelling platform. Graduation today was overwhelming to say the least. My extreme fatigue mellowed me out but once the sound check started and I got on stage just to play silly hand drums that sounded amazingly catchy, I looked out upon the many empty seats before me and I started shaking. I'm usually not one to catch nerves too bad cause I control a lot of my emotion pretty decently, but this was just rough. I almost saw all the faces of those I've known and seen for so long right there, and it's hard to contemplate the idea that today would be the only time we'd ever be united as one. Out of our whole school career there is not one time where everyone wears the same thing and is celebrated for being successful at the same time. It was just mind-boggling to be honest. And then to see Taylor up there just ripped me apart in happiness. Moments like that are what life is about. Being there for eachother and caring for one another and acknowleding accomplishments is what this is all about. It's a journey and you'll never have enough money or clothes or friends to buy these moments back. It's wild how they happen so quick and how your whole life can culminate to one very second. The second that caps off a chapter and opens a new one. I don't know what I feel right now but I just know that it's wild and it's happy and it's sad. I feel like the day you first get your red bike for xmas, and you ride it, but you fall down and get a few scrapes, but you're okay so you get up and just cruise on that new bike all day. It's an accumilation of so many triumphs and downfalls that it's weird to think that it's over. I just want to say thank you to all that read this and that know me and that have talked to me. I wouldn't have been able to make it to this day without you, I want to thank my parents and family for supporting me and for always picking me up when I was down. They always see something great in me when it's hard for me even to look in the mirror at myself. Family is what gets you through, those people that can feel potential oozing from your presence and acknowledge it with respect. I want to thank just my community for giving me the opportunity to excel and meet others. But now the time has come for me to spread my wings and fly to my own destination. I don't know how I'll get there, or even if I'll get there, but it's not about getting their anyway. It truly is about the journey. This is only the beginning class of 2010, and I pray that all who have graduated will achieve great success and hold fast to their dreams. Meet and greet, and when someone does you wrong, try to see the good in them. Because why waste your short time on this earth angry or sad? The people in our lives and the experiences we have with them define us. They make us who we are. So dream big and go for gold, you have the power to change the world. Yes you! Take it upon yourself to be someone, to make a difference. Love all, becauses our worth is not measured in silver or gold. Take this summer to examine yourself and figure out what's important to you. This is the time of our lives folks... and I wouldn't miss it for the world. Much love to all of you and may God be with you as you pursue your future endeavors.

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2:13 AM

Well it's 2:13 in the morning and today has been long but amazing as well. Matter of fact this whole weekend has been wonderful. First of all I'd just like to put out my many congratulations to all those that are graduating and having their grad parties. It's awesome to see all my peers being commended for their hard work, and to be honest it's crazy going through these days that I'll honestly never ever have again for the rest of my life. Which makes me think how poopy and monotonous life can really be a majority of the time. I wish I had the energy and charisma to tackle life's circumstances like I do today. The passion and burn inside me has been rekindled by the unity in friendly competition the world cup has brought, and also by just being with friends and not having school. As old chapters come to an end and new ones begin I really do find myself after a long weekend at 2:16 in the morning quite optimistic about life. I really think that these are the times of my life. The days that should be documented and the moments that should be remembered. Sometimes I restrain myself from being because of the rules or the social stipulations on this society, but today is one of those days where I just have to breathe and say you know what... this is what I want and this is who I am. We have the ability to write our own future, to make our own choices, to have our own identity. Though we have this power, it can also cause great stress and strife which I've noticed. If there's one thing I would like to happen for this summer and transitional period it would be just to allow myself to be during these times. To be less subjective and to just take in life and enjoy what it has to offer. So many times I find myself contemplating the stupidest things when honestly it's those stupid things that sometimes make life enjoyable. I don't have to have an answer for everything and I don't have to be strong all the time. I guess I'm learning?

All I know is that these 17 years have accumulated to this very moment to make me who I am. History has made it's way to the year 2010 to give me congratulations on success and usher me into a new state, education, and lifestyle. I've never been so excited to be alive in such a while and I honestly can wait 'til summer's over because this one's gonna be one for the record books. At the end of the day I love people and I love whatever that magic is inside all of us that makes us unique and utterly unbearable at times. Why you may ask? Because if everything was easy, there'd be no such thing as success, triump, or victory. Without the dreams that have been embedded in our hearts, we would not have been able to see our way through the trials and troubles this life has thrown at us. So today I give thanks to God and all those who have made me who I am and have encouraged me to live and to be, because without you, Mervyn Egerton LeRoy Levy III would just be a name, instead of a complete person.

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June 6,2010

So I've been in the house all day, quite bored so why not snag a survey from heather?

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Ready for some hard truth twisting questions?
yarp

Do you want a relationship?
I do, but I want the right one.

What do you want?
to be consistant

The past month, regret something?
nope

Will this weekend be a good one?
Well it's the end, and the next one isn't looking too hot

The last person that made you angry, did you tell them?
I think so

Do you pay with cash, credit/debit, or checks most often?
cash

Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
love one

Do you remember who you liked 3 months ago?
I don't think I like anyone 3 months ago

Have you ever lived with a girlfriend/boyfriend?
nah

Is there a guy that knows a lot about you?
yea

How is your heart lately?
poopy

How many guy best friends do you have?
2

Where were you 30 minutes ago?
upstairs

Do you know anyone with a really weird name?
most likely

Do you think you will be in a relationship two months from now?
doubt it

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
doubt it

If you were in the hospital on life support, would the last person you kissed visit?
nope

Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a bed?
nope

Do you miss someone?
yea...

Are you going to get hurt by a girl/guy anytime soon?
doubt it

Do you think you will be married by the time you are 35?
hopefully

Are you currently looking forward to tomorrow?
nope

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
I feel no conviction to do anything, I've lost my mojo

Is there anything in your room that reminds you of the past memories?
yup, my letter drawer. My boutinerres(sp)from prom, and my little box that I keep random stuff from life in.

Were you single on your last birthday?
yup

Would you kiss anyone you've texted today?
nope

You kissed someone today, didn't you?
nope

Have you ever been awake for 2 days straight?
yarp

Ever really cried your heart out over a girl/guy?
nah

What are you listening to right now?
nothing

Do you want to be in a relationship with someone?
I wouldn't mind it

Whats the first thing you did when you opened your eyes today?
turned on the french open

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
one day i'll get a turntable somewhere on my body or a record

Can you sleep without blankets covering you?
yea but i gotta have a sheet unless its burnin hot in the room

Do you believe ex's can be friends?
yup, in time.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
last night.

How's your hair styled right now?
jungle curls, lookin raggedy

Who did you last talk to on the phone for over 15 minutes?
can't even tell ya

What will you be doing in an hour?
longboarding

Are you happy about that?
yea, i need to get away

If a guy/girl you truly care about needs you at 3 AM, would you go?
of course

Could you handle living together with the last person who texted you?
yea he's like a brother to me

If you were granted one wish, what would you wish for?
to be satisfied with whatever life on this earth has to offer

Last person you kissed, have you cried in front of them?
nah

If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
nah

Have you ever kissed the last person you texted?
nah

Do you think people think bad things about you?
probably, I'm a crappy kid sometimes

Where would I have found you at 11pm last night?
in my car on the way home

Have you eaten a live fish?
dumb idea

When was the last time you had a real smile on your face?
friday winning regionals!

Today, did you see the 'someone' that makes you smile?
my neice :D

Who's hoodie did you wear last?
mine

Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
i will be up at 7

Do you check your texts right away when you receive them?
usually

Why did you last smile?
probably my neice speaking some crazy talk

Do you wake up easily in the morning, or do you like to sleep in?
sleep

Where do you wish you could go on a vacation to right now?
South Africa for World Cup!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you?
ya know, this is a toughie, I guess it'd be nice?

Have you ever slept on a couch with someone?
yarp, every sleepover is on a couch

Are you afraid of falling in love?
why would I be afraid?

Does anyone know your password besides you?
nah but my family could figure it out

Are you ticklish?
sadly... yes

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
i doubt it

When was the last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
friday

Could you go a day without eating?
negatory

Were you born in the 90's?
yarp

Next time you will kiss someone?
only God knows

Relationship status?
single

Do you have any bruises on you?
nope, i'm too dark

What were you doing at 9am this morning?
sleep

What are your plans for tomorrow?
school,practice,haircut hopefully?

Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
no

What is your next piercing going to be?
not getting another one

Do you miss the way things used to be?
i miss not having stress, i miss real people, i miss Anne Fiala, so that's a yes.

What’s your favorite thing to have on your bed?
ice tea, bible

What do you look forward to in the next month?
graduation, world cup, beach week, july-summer!

Do you have a piece of jewelry you never take off?
my turtle stays on more than anything

Who do you talk to the most in science class?
Alison Lewis, my best LB!!!

Would you rather go to a party or out of town?
depends on the party, most likely out of town though.

Is anyone upsetting you right now?
myself

Anyone told you a secret this week?
nah

What’s your LEAST favorite subject in school?
math

What compliment do you receive most often?
couldn't tell ya, probably on being nice

Do you use shampoo and conditioner or just shampoo?
soap, i don't have much hair haha

Have you ever gotten kicked out of the mall?
nah

How many people do you truly trust?
besides family... maybe 2

Do you believe that there's good in everybody?
yes

Are you wearing a necklace?
no

Does anyone hate you?
maybe

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
yes

What were you doing before you got on the computer?
family movie

What did you do last night?
chill at a party

Favorite color?
purple

Describe your life at the moment.
picture of a bridge in black and white, with selective color on the rays of light poking through the clowdy sky.

What are you going to eat for dinner?
bacon cheeburger ya diggz

What are your plans for the weekend?
hopefully state finals, dj a sweet sixteen, church, baby cousin's christening (sp)

Has anyone seen you in your underwear this past month?
probably

Ever been called babe?
yea... sorta weird

Have you ever given up on anyone?
yup

Would you live with someone with out marrying them?
yup

Is there a difference between the word 'best friend' and 'friend'?
I guess

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
last night

Do you know anybody who was abused?
yes

Do you take walks often?
nah, i should more though

Are you afraid to grow up?
sortaish

Do you care what people think of you?
yes and no

What's your favorite number?
3

Would you kiss anyone you have texts from in your phone?
well i just deleted my crazy amount of texts, sooo that's a negatory.

Think back 5 months ago, were you single?
yes

Are you one of those people who constantly check the time?
yes

How many letters in your middle name?
7 in the first and 5 in the second

Is your last name longer than six letters?
no

Is someone on your mind right now?
nope

Was the last person you hugged a male or female?
female

Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
yes

How many different drinks have you had today?
I think all I've have is OJ haha

What were you doing last night at midnight?
sitting on my bed

If you had to choose one: strawberries or grapes?
grapes

What color is your shirt?
Grey

It's been awhile since I've written but for some reason my life is just feeling stale. Don't ask me why cause to be completely honest I wouldn't be able to tell you. Many good things have been happening or are about to happen that I'm happy for so here's a little list...
-Regional Champs
-End of School/Graduation
-Grad Parties
-Beach volleyball season
-World cup
-Beach weekk
-Longboarding
-Tennis
-Djing a birthday party

So much good is going on but I feel so much bleh right now. Sometimes I wish I could just talk to someone or something and get a straight up answer. I wish I could understand why certain things inside me talk to me the ways they do and why there are so many things that influence my decisions. My brain's just in a weird spot I guess. Sometimes I really enjoy being tired because I'm too lazy to worry or think about stuff ya know? You just shut down, I wish I had that ability with other things in life. I wish I could just shut down all the doubt in my head and all the problems and the pain and just not have the energy to worry about them. But sadly it never seems to work that way for me. Maybe I'm due for a relationship, or atleast some legitimate interest in a girl. I guess that's another reason why college will be nice. I get to see some new faces and learn about some new people. The ashburn breed's getting a little stale for me now a days. Sometimes I try to think about the perfect girl and what she would look like or act like, and every time I seem to come to the same conclusion. I always end up accepting that I have no idea what the perfect girl for me would look or act like. I sorta wish I knew what it took to get me interested in someone. I guess I'll know when I find her right? I can't imagine having love like that, a love that's so exciting and young and perfect. After awhile you forget what it feels like to be sought after, to be wanted. It's sorta sad I guess but that's just how it goes. Everything has it's time right? Well anyhows I'm done rambling on about nothing so I hope you all have a good last couple weeks or days of school my friends.

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