Post-it

I think I'm going to go on a post-it note campaign. I think I'm just gonna write some nice stuff on them and stick them places, just to make people smile ya know? Like how cool would it be to see a post-it note on an ATM that just says have a good day with a smiley face. I would dig that. Thoughts, comments, and suggestions are welcome :)

Keep The Peace

I just want an education.

So I've been here for a week now. Pitt that is. I don't know how I feel about it right now. Sometimes I'm really having a lot of fun. Other times I'm really just tired and annoyed and dissapointed. I think what really hurts me about this whole thing is that no one seems real. No one stands up for anything. No one seems to believe that there's something greater than this moment, whatever it may be. I wish I could just look into these people's hearts and just see with my own eyes what they really want, what they're really looking for. Everyone seems to fill whatever void that they have within their hearts with alcohol, sex, drugs, or just trashy language and attitudes. I can't understand. Why do we HAVE to find a party tonight? Why does it matter if there's alcohol or not? I just can't wait 'til I'm old enough where alcohol isn't a part of daily discussion. I really just miss good people. People that were content with just being themselves. I miss the pursuit of Love. Not the pursuit of happiness, cause what is happiness? Happiness is so clouded these days. I just want some stability.

I guess I'm going to have to invest in some nose plugs now... Nothing like the smell of weed at 1:40 AM on a Sunday morning -_-. Who are these people? And what are they looking for? Who are they trying to impress? What does their past look like? I'm lost. Thank the Lord for Hillsong United. The only way I can get away is just to drift higher in worship. Alone in my compact double dorm I find myself blasting Christian music to drown out the nonsense. Yes, that's my college experience right now, is that a problem? If you're new and reading this, feel free to judge me, because this is who I am. I am nothing without God. His presence is made known even in the most poopiest of situations. He is the God forever and ever. He is magnificent, beautiful, His grace, oh his grace! I don't know if I'm homesick, or just God sick. I miss the church. I miss my FE family!

Being away from home this one week has taught me a lot about young people. I've noticed that at this stage of our lives, so many of us just cling to this concept of acception. This idea of being a part of something. Being identified through an organization, whether it be a group of friends, a frat, a party scene, a club etc. So many of use are just fighting to belong when I've realized that I just wasn't meant to fit. God didn't cut me into a square when he molded my body from his heavenly clay. I was made to stick out in this world. I was made to make people think. I was made to challenge the world to open their eyes. I was made to shine my light wherever I go. I have been called. This is where I belong, and I WILL overcome. I WILL make a difference. I WILL be a positive impact upon my peers. Because God has called me to be somebody. To identify myself with Him and His kingdom. It's beautiful. So I am not ashamed to be here, to be me, to be alive.

Sometimes you just have to see yourself through. When i get discouraged I just have to take the time to remember that I'm not alone. God is with me and I should not be afraid. Because he loves me. He loves me for me. He doesn't love me for my looks or for my abilities. He just loves. Isn't that what we all want? Why can't people see? Why can't people see thaty they're hurting themselves? Why can't people see that they're giving their lives away? Why can't people see? Why? It hurts my heart, but here I am. I press on towards the prize that God has reserved for me in Christ Jesus. I don't know what He has in store, but I know that the Lord IS good.

I miss all of you at home. I miss my family and my friends. I miss my church. I miss my home. But I'm determined to take a stand. God will give me strength I know it. I'm sorry but I just had to see myself through this one. The more I write the more confident I get. You have to push yourself in this world. You have to make a decision and be discipline. You have to take care of business. I'm on my own now, and He is all I got, and all I need.

"I'm found in the arms of Love.
For your Love it has saved my soul.
I'll run to your arms of Love.
Your light's gonna lead me home."

Keep The Peace

http://tommykim.wordpress.com/2010/08/27/love-is-patient-and-kind/

Read that. Tommy is right on.

Hail To Pitt

Well... I'm at college now. These past 3 days have been pretty interesting to say the least. I've never seen so many young adults in my life. It's cool just meeting people and doing stuff on your own. The responsiblity factor just sorta skyrocketed for me. Picking classes was a nightmare. Today is pretty much the last day to pick classes so obviously my choices were slim. It sorta sucks but ehh.. you get over it. I hit up a frat party last night with some kids I met. I'm not gonna lie, it was bumpin but it's just sorta hilarious how much it is like TV. I was catching the bus back to my dorm and I ran into these 3 drunk upperclassmen girls who were waiting for a ride too. Beautiful people. It's crazy how this world is. I feel like they're gonna be awesome parents but it seems like they're just trying to get the most out of their youth. Party it up woooooot!!! It's whatever. To be honest it's pretty cool here though. The food is decent, the people are nice and there's stuff to do. The first night I figured out how crucial having ear plugs is. Not being able to sleep because of partiers in the streets is pretty lame. Hopefully I'll be able to hook up a DJ gig sometime soon and make some money. I feel like my skills could definitely be used.

My roommate is an internation chinese student. He speaks english but it's really slow sometimes so it's hard to be patient with him because 2 minute conversations take 15. He's a nice guy though, he gave me a fan for a roommate present. I was reading the bible before I went to bed and he asked what I was reading and when I told him he was puzzled. I figured out that he had never heard of the bible before and he doesn't really have a grasp around religion. He kept referring to it as like Western culture or something like that. It seems like it was just a class for him or something and that's all he knows about it. It's crazy how blessed we are to be free in this country. He says in China they can't watch cartoons after age 9 or something like that, and he said that he just found power rangers on the internet and thinks they're cool. It's wild how the world works in certain places. I just pray that he'll get the most out of his experience here. He seems like a good kid.

I was reading from the book of Isaiah last night and I came across something I read before that I underlined.

"Yet it was our weaknesses he carried; it was our sorrows that weighed him down. And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God, a punishment for his own sins! But he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed. All of us, like sheep, have strayed away. We have left God's paths to follow our own. Yet the Lord laid on him the sins of us all."
Isaiah 53:4-6

The word of God is just beautiful. The sacrifice is even more beautiful. As I meet new people and just sort of see how different everyone is and how much they try to impress other people, certain things within me remain the same. God is Lord Almighty, and I trust Him and His plan for me more than anything in this world. School's gonna be tough at times, but I know He'll get me through. I hope everyone's having an awesome time at school and I just want you all to have fun and stay safe!

Keep The Peace

last night

This is it. My room looks like crap and around tomorrow at this time I will be asleep waiting for Monday morning to come so I can move in. Goodbyes/see you laters are so sour. I'm finally feeling like this is all happening. I wish I could put this feeling into words, but I just can't. I'm gonna miss kath and paige so much, you two are awesome people and I love you guys. JD, you da man also and you WILL be visiting me. Besides that this is just a tough feeling. I just hope I don't forget anything and I pray that the transition will go as smoothly as possible. I also hope my roommate isn't a shmuck but that's besides the point. I guess it's time to start the rest of my life... I'll keep you guys posted on how it goes and update with some burgh pics. I love all you that read and talk to me, you guys make me me.

Keep The Peace

3 days.

Living never stops. Life is pretty wild if you ask me. We were born as beings that naturally functioned and now we have grown into these complex humans with feelings and responsibilities etc. Sometimes I wish life just stayed a little flat for a bit. I feel like just as I'm catching my breath I'm hitting the next drop or loop in the roller coaster. There's just a lot going on ya know?

Money.Sucks.A.Lot.

I wish money didn't make or break dreams... make or break families. Money is such a factor when it really shouldn't be. 3 days from now it'll all be different. I reminisce on all those who have invested into my future and I just want to say that I'm gonna try my best to be successful no matter what. So many people have just spoken success and victory into my life to a point where I truly believe I can't lose unless I let myself. It's gotten to the point where I'm really going to be put to the test. These next 4 years are all on me now, and it's crazy to think that I'm ready for that. Shucks I'm only 17. I'm not stressin, just thinking.

More than anything I'm just going to miss my family. My family are the types of people that are ALWAYS there for me and ALWAYS understanding. I'm gonna miss sitting at the counter for a couple hours after dinner just chatting. Real talk. Small talk. I'm gonna miss not being around a loud group of friends and peers and just listening to my house. My home. Life's changing before my eyes, almost as if the floor's just coming out from under me. My closet looks naked. It's just a lot that's all.

I really hope things turn out alright. I just pray for stability during times like these. God does everything for a reason, and has never forsaken me. When I start to think like this I guess it's best to just re-realize that I'm not in control. Now's the time to let my light shine and live just like I did in the womb. Time to use my natural instincts to keep myself alive. In 3 days the beginning of the rest of my life will commence. I think I'm just about ready :)

M

I just received the most awesomest going away letter from this one girl that knows who she is. I really just wanna say that even though we didn't get to hang out that often, I'm so glad we're friends. Your words really brought tears to my eyes and it's really awesome thinking that what I say and what I believe really means something to other people. When it comes down to it, that's what life is about right? How we go about loving others and caring for each other. When we die we can't take our money or our cars or clothes, but our legacy lives on through those we have touched on this Earth. I hope sometime we get to hang out more, maybe when we both get back on break? I feel like we could have some awesome conversations. It's a blessing having someone like you in my life and I'm just truly honored to know that I've been indirectly able to positively influence you and the way you see things around you. Anyways good luck at school and I'll be sure to take a class with you and LT (right?) when I get back ;)

Mervyn