Brooklyn's Finest

Well I probably know what your first thought is... you probably think this is going to be a movie review of some sort, which it could still probably turn out that way but my point to this post is far from it. I've been very moved by this and I hope that whatever I write will you give you the least bit of understanding of how I'm feeling right now.

So it's movie night tonight with the family and it has been decided that Brooklyn's Finest was next up. As the movie wore on my family slowly evacuated the family room 'til it was only my Dad and I watching this movie. In case you are unaware, Brooklyn's Finest is rated R and the story is about some dirty cops and drug dealers within the projects of Brooklyn. I bet there's a lot of people out there that thought this was a good movie and a part of me feels agrees with them, but my heart really wasn't settled while watching this movie.

I guess you could call me over sensitive but the excessive amounts of cursing and graphic sex scenes really just broke me up inside. It literally pains me to watch women in situations where their surroundings or their lifestyle has turned them into sex slaves. It hurts to see people lie, cheat, and steal to get by. More than anything this movie just reminded me of how twisted the world can be sometimes. To be honest it was a movie I wish I had never seen because it just put me in a bad mood. I was speechless at the end just thinking to myself about how blessed I am.

After the movie was over I just sat for a little while. I had consumed so much of this dark life that I'd seen on the screen that I couldn't think. My head was like a whirlwind of greif. Something within me was just broken over this movie and that feeling just led me to talk to God about it. Something in me was just telling me to just take the time to get away from my life and just focus on Him. So I did. I went to my room and I started to weep. I have never cried like that in my life, and it was over a movie. I couldn't speek. Whatever I saw on that screen just put my mind into a place where it didn't need to be. The movie just reminded me of how much I don't belong in this world. It reminded me of all the things I wish I could change, the things I wish never existed. It reminded me that there is darkness and evil out there. All that thinking made me realize that what I had seen on the screen is a reality for some human beings in this world. And that tore me apart.

Those girls are somebody's daughters. There are guys out there that are just trying to make it and are willing to do anything. People lose their lives everyday and all they get are a couple of seconds on the daily news. That hurts me. Those people are real, and they deserve more, regardless of who they are. So as I sat there in a puddle of my own thoughts I prayed to God about this world. More so I just prayed about myself, that He would bring me into a place where I could walk with him and that my pride wouldn't keep me so blind for so long. It was interesting because I told him about how wise I thought I was and how in hindsight he knows that those who believe they are wise in worldy ways are truly foolish and he uses those that are fools and fills them up with spirtitual wisdom. Those who trust and have faith in him.

After talking with him I opened up my Bible. I just started reading 1 Corinthians this past week because I'd been seeing a lot of great verses coming out of there and Paul seems to be a really down to Earth and straightforward writer with a lot of passion. As I began to read I stumbled upon some verses that blew my mind.It's 1 Corinthians 3:16-19 and it says,

"Don't you realize that all of you together are the temple of God and that the Spirit of God lives in you? God will destroy anyone who destroys this temple. For God's temple is holy, and you are the temple. Stop deceiving yourselves. If you think you are wise by this world's standards, you need to become a fool to be truly wise. For the wisdom of this world is foolish to God."

This was nuts because I had just prayed to Him about this exact feeling I had inside right before I opened The Word and He responded within the book I was reading at the right time by saying, "Don't you understand that you belong to me? You are holy and I will protect you against anyone or anything that attempts to harm you." And then He goes on by showing me that He heard what I was saying by bringing up the same exact thing I just prayed to Him about. This whole sequence of events that have transpired out of a really graphic movie have moved me to state with 100 percent confidence that God IS Good, and He loves YOU! God works in so many mysterious ways and it is truly an honor to have the opportunity to get to know Him. I am so blessed and so thankful for the life He has given me, and regardless of where I am today or tomorrow He is mine and I am His.

Keep The Peace