Ya know... sometimes I get lost in this whole blogging thing and writing and stuff and I forget to look back and see how much I've changed or not changed. At first I wanted to start this blog to share my mind and write some cool stuff and everything, but my whole purpose for writing has changed. It's almost like an easier way to tell people what they need to hear. I'm really trying to get over myself lately... getting over how I feel, or what I want that isn't really important, or what is hard or tiring. I'm working on picking myself up, and I'm not gonna lie it's tough. But through mental struggles like these I can get past my simple and relatively safe life, and shift the focus onto people that need it.

You may be aware of this or not but there is someone out there that needs love. And it's not the boyfriend/girlfriend where we hold the hands and the butterflies happen and the warm tingly feelings yada yada shada. But honestly, someone just needs to know they're worth something. Someone within your area needs you to reach for them. It's sad to know that some people feel like they're worth nothing. It also sucks that sometimes I'm so sucked up into myself and what I want that I miss the opportunity to let people know that they're beautiful, to stop what I'm doing and check in.

I'm reading this book that Cody gave me and it talks about this less than decent looking kid that was in college. He had bad achne, red crazy out of control hair, and was obese. He came home for Christmas break with his family. When he was between catching buses to go back to college his dad went with him and when they got off a bus some of his father's co-workers were there. They started jeering at his son talking about how he's a pig and how embarrassed they'd be to have a son that looks like that etc. etc. In that moment the father instead of backtalking, ignoring, or even worse going along with those guys; he kissed his son and told him that he was proud of him, loved him, and couldn't ask for a better son. The college boy received confirmation and immediate self-esteem. He later went on to love Jesus, get married, become a priest... but that's besides the point. It's the fact that the father recognized an opportunity to confirm the beauty within a human being. For some people that's all they need, just someone to tell them that they're not a failure, that they're not a waste.

It's crazy to think that you or I can change someone's world. How one confrontation can change a life forever. I think it's more lame how we forget that we have this power. Why isn't there a show on tv that's devoted to showing people how beautiful they are for just being who they are? Instead we have shows where we need to get "made" into being something worth being. How flipping out of control is that? I know we've heard this a million times but we really need to start taking it upon ourselves to show love to all people. This type of love is what changes the world. This is the type of love that has changed me forever.

This love is the only reason why I feel content with my life. I know that if I lost all I had today I'd still try to love others. Love is the only way my life feels fulfilled, helping and caring is the only thing that brings my heart true joy, and in the situations where I'm taking the time and giving the patience to learn and get to know people, the more I'm really learning about myself and what's important to me. I'm sorry that this post has gone for so long but every once in a while I just need to re-evaluate my purpose in life right now. I know I'm not perfect but I'm trying, and though we may fall, we have the ability to pick ourselves back up again.

(this was a little crazy but hey... that's my head right now)

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