Brick Squad

I really really like college. I don't know what I'm gonna do after school or how I'm gonna pay for it but I know this is where I belong. I think knowing things in your heart should still count for something these days. There's a lot of focus on money and safety and security, but I think it's so true that the most beautiful and pure things occur outside of that realm of comfort. And this is just one of those situations where I know this is what I want and where I should be. Nothing beats 2AM recording sessions with 8 people stacked up in a single.

Hip Hop

As far as I'm concerned... Hip Hop is dead. But every once in awhile I hear it resurrected in a banger.



*excuse the language*

"Take your girl have her back
we don't want her round my team
she's a slut she's a freak
you don't know cause she's discrete"

Everyone has a beast mode, Bobby Ray's is just vicious.

ps. cred to Coolstreak for leaking this first

Today I find it liberating that I know what I want and I'm willing to wait for it. She's gotta love Him more than I do.

Parties must have been super chill back then. I miss the days before grinding.

Jim-bo

"Some people are just so smart and can get a 34 on their ACT and see that there’s still room for improvement, instead of just “settling.” Some people can sing their ABCs and legitimately bring me to tears. Some people could be having an “off” day on stage, and still truly frighten me with a character they’re playing. Some people know exactly what they’re doing in life. Even if they’re naive and ignorant of what their future truly holds, that’s got to be really assuring. Some people can really make a guitar cry with a heartbreaking solo. Some people understand the craft of music composition like few others. Some people are just so good! Some people could get any girl at the drop of a hat but still have the insight to prioritize more important things in life above that. Some people just know things. Some people just get it.

But I don’t mind anymore. I’m not jealous, I’m not envious. Real maturity for me has come through forgetting others at times and focusing on honing my own God-given talents. I still emulate others - more than anyone knows - but I know I’m good enough. God still loves me. He doesn’t mind when I fall short; I will always be good enough for him. That is a beautiful thing, and that is what truly keeps me going. Regardless of whether you share my beliefs or not, one must admit that that feeling of sheer adequacy must be incredibly comforting at times. And you know what? It is. It really is. This year is gonna be incredibly itself. I like where I am, but I’m not settling. I’m still going to grow. I’m going to do something this year. That’s my new year’s resolution. I’m not even sure what that exactly is yet, but I’ll know when it comes.

And I will be ready."


Yes. This whole thing was worth quoting. Jimmy, you're right on, and to be honest you have a great head on your shoulders kid. You're gonna do great things.

This is what we have to look forward to in 2011. There's hope for the future.

There's just too much soul in this nappy hair and sweaty face

Pee Wee

I lived today. When I live I come back to the roots of what my life should be. In all honesty it should be about the journey right? That's all we have to hold on to.

I realized today that the biggest thing I respect in a friend is the ability to do what you say you'll do. Usually this comes up when that whole akward situation of bumping into someone you know in public happens and they're like, "aww we should catch up, i miss you". That's the tell tale sign of the fact that what they say will never happen. When this happens my response is usually the same, something consisting of, "I'm free all the time, just gimme a call when you wanna do something and we'll figure it out." Then they never call. And that's it.

Maybe I'm being a little selfish here, but I'm done missing people. I'm done trying, I'm done asking. Friendship shouldn't be pulling teeth. If you're too busy to chill then that's fine, but you don't have to lie to me. It's not going to hurt my feelings, it's reality. And to be honest, I know a nice group of people that enjoy having me around and I'm so blessed to have them. I'm better off without those people that really don't care about me.

I went to lunch today with a friend I haven't really talked to in a couple months. We never went to high school, we never sat down and talked for more than 5 minutes. This guy's a busy man. Yet literally at 10 last night he asked if we were gonna chill before I left, I said I leave tuesday but we should get something together before then if you're free, he said yea sure, I said you down for tomorrow, he said yea. And today we met up and had lunch. It wasn't anything intense, but I appreciated his word. He drove out to my side of town just to eat. That in itself was excellent. Not saying that I expect less, but maybe I should expect more from other people. It's not tough to set aside an hour or two of your day for someone. It wasn't even the conversation which made my day, but just the fact that I got to chill with him one on one and he went out of his way to make it out here was nice. That's what friends do. Friends listen, they ask questions, they see how you're doing, they sacrifice, they love you. I needed that today. I needed hope, and that little bit of joy put me in a better mood for the rest of the day. I need the inspiration and the energy. Just seeing Kaitlyn learning how to play guitar made me wanna retry learning how to play harmonica. If I get that down then I think It'd be really fun to play some music with all these guitar playing friends. I love these people.

I think this past year I've realized in general that I really don't need that much. I don't need an excess of anything, because it always just seems to lead to waste. I have wonderful friends at home that I've been lucky enough to see a bunch of times, and i don't really feel like I've missed out on anything. It feels good to be loved for the right reasons.

:)